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waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... dah lama gak bikin coretan

kali ini soalnya sibuk sama pemulihan kesehatan dan cari duit . ahhay. kebutuhan manusia yang gak pernah ada habisnya.. .. ...  sama mewujudkan planning kuliah jurusan design... hmm hmm hmmm,,,,,,

TO BE HAPPINEST WOMAN

this time stop to say confused , its not time to sing "im so tired" -  the fab four. How i can be poor if i stay in the middle this statement :I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink -----I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink 

I wonder should I get up and fix myself a drink -----I'm so tired, I don't know what to do
I'm so tired, my mind is set on you ------I wonder should I call you but I know what you'd do
You'd say I'm putting you on ------But it's no joke ------It's doing me harm, you know I can't sleep
I can't stop my brain, you know it's three weeks -------I'm going insane
You know I'd give you everything I've got -----for a little peace of mind 

this time to pray . fullfill all my need for my future , and grow confidence , like Al Qarni said :

With your beauty, you are better than the sun; with your morals you are more sublime than musk; with your modesty you are nobler than the full moon; with your compassion you a more beneficial than rain. So, preserve your beauty with faith, your tranquillity with contentment, your chastity with hijab.

Remember that your adornment is not gold, silver or diamond, rather, it is two rak’ahs at Fajr going thirsty when you fast for Allah, concealed charity which no one knows except Him, hot tears that wash away sin, a lengthy prostration born of utter submission to Allah, shyness before Allah when the inclination to do evil overwhelms you.

Clothe yourself with the garments of taqwa (piety) for you are the most beautiful woman in the world, even if your clothes are shabby. Clothe yourself with cloak of modesty, for you are the most beautiful woman in the world even if you are barefoot.

Beware of the life bewitching immoral disbelieving women, for they are the fuel of the fire of Hell.

O’ sincere Muslim, O’ believing woman who constantly turns to Allah, the Exalted, be like the palm tree and rise above evil and harm; if a stone is thrown at the palm tree, it lets its fruit drop (and does not retaliate). It remains green summer and winter, and gives many benefits. Do not lower yourself to the level of trivial matters, and rise above all that may damage your modesty and honour.

A man had an argument with his wife and said, "I am going to make your life miserable." The wife calmly replied, "You cannot do that." He said, "Why not?" She said: "If happiness were to be found in money or jewellery, you could deprive me of it and take it away from me, but it is nothing over which you or any other person has control. I find happiness in my faith, and my faith is in my heart, and no one has power over it except my Lord."

The One Who created happiness is the Most Gracious, Most Merciful, so how can you seek happiness from anyone other than Him? If people had control over happiness, there would be no deprived or grieving person left on earth.

"Do not give up on yourself, because change is usually slow; you will encounter obstacles that will discourage you, but do not let these obstacles defeat you."

"Your gold is your religion, your adornment is your moral attitude, and your wealth is your good manners."

"When distress strikes and calamities come one after another, then say: La ilaha illallah."

"Take from the breeze its tenderness, from the musk its fragrance and from the mountains steadfastness."

"Do not make your problems the subject of conversations with others, for by doing so you create a barrier between yourself and happiness."

"The mother whose child falls from a high place should not waste time weeping; rather, she should focus on tending to his injuries."

"The most sincere generosity comes from those who do not have anything but recognise the value of a kind word and a smile, How many people give, but it is as if they are giving a slap."

"The most difficult time could be made easier by the smile of a confident person."

"Prepare for the worst, then you will feel that things are getting better."

"Do not feel sad or miserable because of some work that you could not complete, rather you should understand that the work of great people is never done."

"Be happy now, today, not tomorrow."　

"Frustration is your worst enemy, for it has the power to destroy peace of mind."

"Your happiness does not depend on anyone else, rather, it is in your hands."

"Work is the fuel of hope and the enemy of failure."

"Yesterday is a dream that has gone and tomorrow is merely a beautiful hope. Only today is real."

"Physical well-being comes from eating little, mental well-being comes from sinning little, well-being of the heart comes from worrying little and well-being of the tongue comes from speaking little."

"Is she happy who shows her beauty to the dogs of mankind and displays her charm to the wolves of them?"

"Men regret speaking, but he will never regret silence."

"In order to be beautiful, your thoughts should be so."

"Man finds happiness in a word that comes from the lips of a woman."

"The strongest fortress is a righteous woman."

"Nothing raises the status of a woman like chastity."

"If a beautiful woman is a jewel, a righteous woman is a treasure."

"The best thing a man can have is a faithful wife."

"Be beautiful and you will see the world beautiful."

"A wise man said: ‘I have never regretted what I did not say, but I have often regretted what I did say.’"

"Do not wait to be happy so that you smile but smile to be happy."

"Be optimistic, even if you are in the eye of the storm."

"Soon the flowers will bloom, grief will depart and happiness will prevail.

"Leave the wrongdoer to the court of the Hereafter when there will be no judge but Allah"

"Sickness is a message in which there is a glad tiding; and good health is a garment that has a price."

"Plant a tasbih (saying Subhan Allah) in a second, an idea in a minute, and a deed in an hour."

"Control your thoughts and you will be happy."

"The successful woman is supplicated for, praised by her husband, loved by her neighbours and respected by her friends."

"All people will live, the one who lives in a palace and the one who lives in a hovel. But who is the one who is happy?"

"Wipe away the tears of the orphan in order to attain the pleasure of the Most Merciful and a house in Paradise."

"Prayer is guaranteed to bring tranquillity and chase away worry."

"Buy with charity the du’a and love of the poor and needy."

"Allah loves those who repent and turn to Him."

"Giving up sin is Jihad (fighting in Allah’s Cause), but persisting in it is stubbornness."

"How can he feel relaxed or content, who harms a Muslim or a slave?"

"Beware of the du’a of the one who has been wronged and the tears of the one who has been deprived."

"In the sound heart there is no room for shirk (polytheism), deceit, rancour or envy."

"The wise woman turns a desert into a beautiful garden."

"Futile arguments and trivial discussions take away the sense of peace and tranquillity."

"Wherever you go and find darkness in your life; what you have to do is to light the lamp within yourself."

"Changing from bad to good is a long-term adventure, but it is wonderful."

"If you give in to despair, you will learn nothing and you will never find happiness."

"Check your past and your present, for life is a sequence of experiences from which one should emerge victorious."

"Do not be content to have some dark areas in your life, for the light is there; all you have to do is to turn it on and see it shining."

"Stop regretting your sin and think about the good deeds with which you are going to replace it."

"Happiness exists in you and you should focus your efforts on yourself."

"We need money in order to live but that does not mean that we need to live for the sake of money."

"Cast away all discouraging thoughts that make you feel helpless, and focus on success, then you will never fail."

"If you fail in one of your deeds, you should not give in to despair; do not worry and never doubt that you will find a solution."

"Do not complain about your problems except to those who can help you with advice and kind words."

"The mother whose child falls from a high place should not waste time weeping; rather, she should focus on tending to his injuries."

"Learn how to co-exist with fear and it will disappear."

"Prepare for the worst, then you will feel that things are getting better."

"Do not worry about things that you cannot perform, rather, spend time on improving what you can improve."

"Be happy with what is in your hand, content with whatever Allah has decreed and give up all daydreams that do not suit your efforts and abilities."

"If you have made mistakes in the past, learn from them, then let them go."

"Do not be a chronic complainer, or an amateur complainer!"

"Self-confidence means finding meaning in life regardless of your age; and being able to gain more from life."

"Regret cannot salvage a ship from the bottom of the sea."

"The value of life is to live every minute of it."

"We cannot change the past or draw the future as we want. Why should we kill ourselves regretting something that we cannot change?"

"There is nothing difficult or impossible in life so long as you are able to work and move."

"There is one way that leads to happiness: stop being worried about the things beyond your control."

"You should not spend half your life in disputes."

"We waste our happy times for valueless things."

"Always bear in mind the picture of success and keep it alive in your mind."

"Dismiss the idea of failure out of your mind."

"Thinking of happiness will inevitably lead to thinking of what comes before and after, and that, in itself, spoils the sense of happiness."

"Of quickest message of happiness to others is a sincere smile from the heart."

"A false smile is a blunt sign of hypocrisy."

"The way to happiness is in front of you, so seek it by means of knowledge, righteous deeds and a good attitude. Be moderate in all your affairs and you will be happy."

"A woman may turn the home into a paradise or into an unbearable hell."

"The greatest blessing is goodness in the soul which makes one happy."

"Count Allah’s blessings upon you, not your problems."

"Real beauty lies in beautiful behaviour, manners and mind"

"Foul tongues causes more trouble to their owners than to their victims."

"The happiest man is the one who makes the largest number of people happy."

"The wise man seeks to benefit from wise opinions; he never despairs or gives up thinking and trying."

"Frustration is your worst enemy, for it has the power to destroy peace of mind."

And end of song is baraka allohuma lakuma .... :)

BARAKA ALLAHU LAKUMA.........

Ketika saya hampir mendekati finish, saya digoyahkan oleh yang menurut teman saya 'triakan makhluk kasat mata namun 'mulutnya harimaunya'..padahal sebelumnya saya mendapatkan perasaan yakin dan mantap tiada tara. lalu dia kata saya sedang di uji. Entah bukan namun saya harap adalah kebenaran. Karena meskipun batin ini goyah, pada kenyataanya saya selalu bersiap dan mempersiapkan alias maju lurus. Apapun itu yang saya kerjakan semoga adalah bimbingan Tuhan. Lalu penglihatan kiri saya berdetak detak , kadang kala namun jelas. Itukah pertanda saya akan dipertemukan dengan ibu ke dua saya??? Lalu kelopak indra pandangan kanan ini terkejut kejut berirama dan berkontinyu...Itukah pertanda saya akan mendapatkan ria gempita dan keberkahan Tuhan tiada nilainya? Dalam doa saya namanya tersebut dalam doa saya kemantapan hati ku pasrahkan ... Dia pemilik jiwa dan hati..Dia pemilik masa depan kami...Dia ,hanya Dia saya mempertaruhkan perasaan dan tubuh ini...Dan pada akhirnya saya dibawa dan digelincirkan pada kekokohan dan  dilindungi serta diselamatkan bersama kenaifan saya memilih dia.. Hanya Tuhan yang menuntun hanya Tuhan yang menjunjung dengan segala keberkahan yang telah dan akan kami terima ..Dimana baginya hanya secuil tiada berarti yang datang menjadi hujanan berkat tiada terhingga....a m i n

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير
بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير


بارك الله
بارك الله لكم ولنا
الله بارك لهما
الله أدم حبهما
الله صلّي وسلّم على رسول الله
الله تب علينا
الله ارض عنا
الله اهد خطانا
على سنة نبينا

Saat tiba waktunya terasa  biasa saja, namun terbersit pertanyaan mengganjal  akan  keyakinan dirinya. Apakah  dia tidak menyesal memilih  saya mengingat kita sudah hampir berada di garis finish.... setengah bertanggung jawab terhadap diri kami masing masing dan satu sama lain. Saya  berasa berada di " bunga tidur" . Apakah dia tidak menyesal dengan keberadaan saya yang sering meledak - ledak? seperti chibi maruko chan atau lilo? atau  teroris yang tiba tiba erupsi... Saya  mengikrarkan diri  (bahkan seja dulu ketika saya menyesali diri karena selalu "gempar" atau "gempa" )saya akan lebih respect pada dia. Yang akan sepenuhnya dimana saya mengais pahala padanya. sumber bekal menuju surga, pangeran dunia saya kelak. Dan ketika saya semakin menyadari betapa bodohnya ketika keputusan tergesa gesa dibuat apalagi mengikut campurkan sang emosi tinggi. Mulai saat kemaren, saya akan melepaskan " si tanduk merah"..  saya akan setengah mengabdikan sifat saya yang buruk pada patung menjulang nun jauh dan tinggi, tanpa pamrih, tanpa ada niat untuk mengambilnya kembali. Selanjutnya saya akan menghitung hari demi hari... ya menghitung walaupun tanpa saya sadari dan saya hitung betapa banyak sudah waktu yang berlalu cepat satu demi satu saya lewati. Mulai saat ini saya sibukkan diri untuk meminta dan meminta lalu meminta... berkah , anugrah tertinggi pada Nya. Hanya Dia dan hanya kami berdua yang tahu bagaimana guncangan hasrat itu sedemikian menggebunya. Satu lankah lagi menuju kesempurnaan . Saya menginginkan kelulusan . Akan semua ujian di depan.... Untuk kemudian saya menemukan satu lagi sayap saya yang tercecer di belahan bumi (yang mungkin sudah saya temukan).....

entah

entah apa  yang terjadi dengan saya...tiba tiba muncul  kebanggaan dan menanti nanti. yang saya  maksud adalah menanti datangnya kantuk . sambil  berharap berharap ada sapaan yang mengagetkan.. lalu  terlarut dan terlarut dalam obrolan semu nan panjang dan absurd... lalu kembali berpikir untuk hari esok yang menjemukan diamana  terpaksanya mulut ini terkatup dengan sistem yang sudah tercipta.